You don't notice the effect things have on you, until you take about 5,324 steps back for a hot minute, and breathe. You get what you think about ... over and over and over, ad nauseum. What you put in, inadvertently, is what you put out, and all the other witticisms, and wisdom, blah-blah-blahbity-blah ...
All I can say is that I spent decades swimming in that sea of negativity, hopping from one place to the next, feeling like I just HAD to let my opinions be known to the world at large, via the internets. I was angry. I was furious. I needed vindication, lather, rinse, repeat.
Turns out, the only person I really had a problem with was staring back at me in the mirror.
I actually do know when this change started to take place in me, but I refuse to talk details, because I will no longer give energy to the events and choices I made that pulled me down.
All I can say is that once that one little speck of light sneaks in through a window shade, once your mind encounters words, or sounds, or even a thought that turns you in a different direction, and you grab ahold for dear life, all the while starting to file through those chains that bind you, it's a pretty amazing thing.
I will always be grateful to an artist, Margot Lovinger, who created this:
via Pinterest
She took the time to share words with me that had helped her in her own life, and they're words I've never forgotten (even if I couldn't put them into play for many years after that):
Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back. Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one's favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way. Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it. Begin it now.Source for this particular version
I'll most likely never stop quoting it because, out of all the quotes I've ever discovered, read, or shared, this is the one that has never left my mind.
I wrote all of the above back in January. Sometimes, I write stuff that I need to really listen to later. This year has been everything it was supposed to be, the good, the bad, and the ugly, and I'm grateful for every bit of it, and ready to experience everything to come.
As my memory (and lack thereof) proves, we really do only have today, right here, and right now, because every second ahead and behind no longer exists. I don't want to waste a second of it worrying about the things that are beyond my control. All I can say is read that quote up there over, and over again, and whatever there is that you are wanting to do, do it now.
That law of attraction thing, it's not just hogwash. It is real. I am living proof. Took me decades to figure it out, but it's definitely true, no matter what you believe. Therefore, why not take charge of what you see, what you hear, what you read, and what you feel ... Commit to what you want out of this life, and leave the rest to work its own self out.
