I Speak. Therefore, I Speak.

Some days, I feel like the words that come out of my fingers and on to the screen are NOT comprehended, or even read. I'm not talking about this blog. I'm looking at it from a work context.

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Note: When I say "said" I mean wrote. 

I get that we are all oversaturated with words. Words are the order of the business. Lots of them. Different kinds of them. In a variety of different places. I, myself, am guilty of reading without comprehending and then responding first without thinking. Ask first, think later <---- Me. However, when you say the same thing, in about the same way, and the other party responds the first time, and acknowledges, but then, you repeat it again the next morning, and they still go off in a completely different direction, which means you have to say it again ... 

I don't know if it's a matter of me not saying it clearly, or succinctly enough. I don't know if it's a matter of the other person's serious lack of attention span. I don't know. 

All I know is something has to change, communication wise, because what's going on at the moment is highly ineffective and wasteful of time. Part of my role is to figure that shit out. So, I need to map out a plan and see what comes of it when I address it. That's all I can do. 

In other news, I'm really kind of enjoying the calendar thing. Really. It's like low-key training your brain to do new habits without overthinking it. It's opening my brain to new possibilities, and new things to do. It's a good thing. The flexibility is key, though, because if you miss a task at a given time, and don't move it, then you feel like you failed. This way, when I do something at a different time, I can just drag it to the new spot, and still check it off. 

One of the biggest lessons I am learning is to DO THAT SHIT WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT IT. I mean, right then. Just do it. Otherwise, the procrastination sets in, and the thought, and related activity remain undone. 

Example: The other day, I thought about how I should just get rid of my tarot book and deck. I dug that shit out and tried it again, and, just meh ... I just don't find it valuable. I did back when I didn't know what direction my life, or brain were going in 98% of the time, but now, not so much. If you're constantly focused on an outside force (be it tarot, horoscopes, psychic readings, or even daily bible devotions) telling you what to do, how to think, and what to look out for, you're NOT living. You're waiting. I don't want to wait any more. 

Speaking of doing things when you think about them, hold please ... 

Say goodbye. They're in the burn can now. 

I also stopped, grabbed a water, filled up another bottle of water, and went pee ... I did things right when I thought about them. 

Another bonus to the calendar is that it allows you to see how much time you're wasting (all the blank spots, or the spots that you KNOW you're filling up with useless activities, such as social media, or just playing Solitaire (my own downfall). 

If I'm being honest, and I AM, I don't record everything I do because I already know I'm wasting a lot of time, but haven't been able to confront myself with that fact just yet. Maybe today, I will. We shall see. I'll show you what my day looked like tomorrow.