Sunrise (for once) ...
I was going to tell you exactly WHERE and what particular mountain that is there in the back, but apparently it doesn't have a name. So, I drew you a map (of sorts).
At least that's what I assume I was looking at (where the arrow is). It's a little dip in the mountants betwixt the end of the Catalinas, and the start of the Rincons, and Saguaro National Park East, which is over here a bit ...
All I can say is that NOTHING is as it seems - when you look at these mountains at face value, from here, they look almost one-dimensional, if that's the right term, as if there's nothing behind them, when ACTUALLY, NOTHING could be further from the truth!
Same mountains, just different me location.
After a year, I still can't tell you which peak in the Catalinas is Mount Lemmon. I know we've been UP there, but come back down, and I'm still lost. Drive west, over in Oro Valley, and it looks like an entirely NEW range.
ANYWHOOOOOOOOOOO, yeah.
Day 3 of NOT helping myself via the self-help content - and all is well. There's a lot to be said for just living life and not always being focused on self-improvement. Sometimes, we just have to be happy with where we are at, and when it gets too uncomfortable, we then have to actually DO something to change it. Consuming self-help fodder is NOT the answer, and I am living proof of that. Otherwise, I'd already be at the top of my game. I am not.
Tomorrow, I get my lab results, so I can get to work on health-related matters. I am anxious/excited, but also not letting myself get my hopes up. I don't have much faith in the medical machine, and therefore, who knows if this time will be different or not. I know something is off with my person, and I'm tired of people just throwing random wet, sticky pills at the wall to see what'll stick.
I just want a roadmap. Kind of like with my job. Can we just have some sort of STRUCTURE from which to plan and create new things, instead of the constant clusterfuck of confusion from which we currently operate?
The old "Eat less, move more, take your vitamins, and stop smoking," while somewhat logical, does NOT apply in every situation. I know the hormonal situation is something I should have tackled way back when, but I didn't, out of fear. And now that things seem to be "safe," it's time to at least try to regulate some things.
Well, I was going to write more that day, which I assume was July 8th, but I never got to it, so here we are on July 12, or Day 7 of The Self-Help Content Boycott. Gotta say, it's not been a problem at all. In fact, since my Beloved went back to Ohio again, I actually haven't consumed a lot of ANY kind of content, except for mindless scrolls on the Gram of Insta, and a few true-crime type blurbs here and there.
Also ANYWHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, I did get my lab results back, and for the most part, I'm doing pretty, pretty, pretty, pretty good. Blood pressure good. White blood cells good. Kidneys - perfect. Liver - perfect. Of all things, I would've thought my kidneys would have displayed some decline, but such was not the case. As expected, though, my estrogen was completed tanked, and the other levels were low, as well.
We are starting off slow. I'm now on the lowest does of Estradiol, by way of twice-weekly patches, and progesterone, which I will be taking tonight for the first time, before bed. I have NOT done but a very minute (five minutes or less) of reading or watching about others' experiences with HRT because I just want to see if it will help ME, and since we are all different beans, it doesn't quite matter what it did or did not do for someone else since I am not them.
Starting today, I'm on a four-week run, and will check back in then to see if dosages should be adjusted, and then we'll start discussing other things, like GLP-2s. I just want to get back to some semblance of NON-slug life. I have no intention of letting life pass me by like my mother before me. I just want to live the best life I can while I've got life left to live.
That being said - that's all I got for now.
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