Well, that escalated quickly ... Here it is, almost Christmas, and so much has happened that I just didn't feel like writing about, but I think I need to start speak-typing again so as to preserve what little is left of my sanity.
This last half of the year has been full of copious amounts of sentence enhancers, mostly in the form of the F word, preceded by What The ...
In thinking back since I last visited here, the appetite gradually came back, and I was having protein shakes about every other morning because they seemed to mask the nausea better than yogurt and grapefruit.
I don't really imbibe anymore, but I found this little meme-icle kind of amusing :)
Funny story - we got a gymnauseum membership again, back at the end of September, maybe, and we've got approximately once. Cool. That's how exercise has gone for the past few months.
This, which lies beneath probably 3-4 ounces of shredded taco chicken, tortilla strips, and ranch dressing has pretty much been the only thing I eat for lunch for at least the past two months.
Other than that, I'm still banished by my eldest child. We have spoken for brief moments in a very cursory, and formal manner just to relay certain bits of news, but otherwise, they are in their own version of life and trying to forget that this world here in Ohio ever existed. Cool.
I have forgotten minute details about everything, so there's not all that much to report by way of stupid news.
I have learned this year that stuff happens whether you're ready for it or not, and sometimes a LOT of stuff happens and your brain is left in the aforementioned state of WTF-ed-ness.
My mom was sick in the first part of the year. Recuperated, but then got pneumonia and was in the hospital for a bout a week. She then went back to the nursing home in the "rehab" portion of the facility, where she continued to do nothing more than decline.
Meanwhile, my nephew called me (which was a shock because we don't normally speak on the phone). He called to inform me that my brother, his father, passed away suddenly in his sleep. Sentences were very enhanced after hearing that. I still don't quite believe it. It's just so surreal. We were not close in location, but we were close in heart and mind, and now there's this kind of void that I can't really fill. He got me. I got him.
Cool. So, then I went and cut all my hair off. Well, I already had the appointment made before that news broke, so I just stuck with the plan.
Look at all that gray!!!!!!!! O.o
I just wanted to start over from almost zero ... it was VERY short. I only wish maybe I had considered the logistics of near bald in Ohio in the winter. Thankfully, I wear a lot of hoodies, so there is protection to be had when I go out of doors.
I can't remember the exact timeframe of anything, but some six days after this photo was taken, my mom took her leave of the planet, as well. Things were just not the same after dad passed, and she set her mind on exiting stage left, and off she went. I haven't ever seen anything quite like it.
There's quite a book of things that I won't ever say here, but ours was a complicated relationship, and while I am glad her pain is gone now, and that I got to be there and say goodbye and let her know I loved her, I also now have this odd feeling of a sense of relief and like maybe those of us left can move on and repair all the brokenness.
Some things in life are just a 5200-piece puzzle, and this family unit was one of them.
Disclaimer: This is all very OLD NEWS ... Just thought I should bring things up to speed because I am in the mood to write again, and who knows how long THAT will last :)
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