So, the rain continues to elude our little corner of heaven. C'est la vie in la desierta. It's been exponentially cooler for the most part of this week, and now it's about to warm up again (HA). Can't wait .... For October and November, just to get these cooler mornings on a more daily basis!
In supplemental news, my Beloved tried this Ryze mushroom stuff that's been swirling about the internets (well, at least since the algorithmic forces caught wind of one or both of us looking at the ads). So, me being curious, I read up on it, and then tested it out yesterday in my morning cuppojo. It wasn't as horrific as I thought it would be, but I ALSO took it upon myself to over-dose, and proceeded to be fairly mellow and tired for most of the day.
This morning, I tried the sample pack of their mushroomy vanilla coffee creamer, and I am very, very, VERY grateful that I tried it before buying it. Ewwww. NOT at all what I want. I'm considering purchasing more for me, and him, but just wish they would allow you to build your OWN bundle, instead of paying for them to send you a bunch of garbage trinkety shit. Just let me buy two bags and give me a discount on THAT. We shall see. Oh, and it is keto friendly, with less than one gram o' carbs, so I feel alright consuming it on that front.
In the world of self image, self esteem, and perception of self, there is nothing about pictures of me now that makes me feel good. I'm 57, my hair is very thinning, I look very round on film (especially the new garage door camera view), and I just want to hide in my shell.
Looking at myself from inside my skull, I don't get the full picture, so I can delude myself that I don't look THAT bad, but pictures, mirrors, and video tell my brain a different story.
So, since this is the most bearable, this will serve as my before shot, since it was taken out at the Mission, well before I started the keto thang:
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I think the first time I started keto, I also had short hair, so by the time I hit my goals, my hair, what there is of it should be exponentially longer. I am playing the long game. It's how I roll.
As we can observe, most of my weight lives north of my thighs. Yay. Apple shape, I think The Guru Theys call it?
I did go through a period when my legs were embarking on some sort of edema journey, or just fat/swollen with a dose of canklage going on. I believe that was right before being diagnosed with the Beetus.
Since those days, my ankles and calves have returned to normal.
I guess my perception, upon seeing myself in pictures, is old chubby lady. Whatever. I am what I am, and I just have to put that out of my head whenever I leave the house. What anyone else perceives me to be is NONE of my business.
I do look forward to getting back to this, though:
A little less APPLE-y, and also in Arizona in '18
I am really thinking about what I need to do in order to be successful again. I think I deleted most of my records from then, which is unfortunate, but I know I made a lot of food in advance, so there was always an option. I know you CANNOT just wing it when doing keto because that's when the carbage creeps back in.
I also know that I have to be more careful this time around, and not play fast and loose with the "High Fat" intake. My kidneys are no longer up to that task, especially since the gall bladder has exited stage left. I probably should start taking the ox bile supplements again, and lay off the MCT oil because that always seems to trigger the pains, typically in the left one.
I don't know if I mentioned my bout with stones and surgery (of the botched) varietal, and stents earlier this year, but let me tell you, it SUCKED. I'm usually good at handling pain and discomfort, so when I end up at the clinic, you know it must be pretty excruciating. If you think getting a gyno exam is uncomortable, try getting stent removal. Possibly the most humiliating medical procedure of my lifetime. YUCK!
Anywhoooooooooooooo, there will be much meal planning and prepping, probably weekly, for the unforeseaable future. Meats, salads, veggebles, snacks, etc.
I was thinking last night that this is what sucks, but what is excellent about keto - you are so NOT HUNGRY and NOT interested in food at ALL, which means you have zero interest in snacking, and less interest in cooking and making full blown meals. Blessing? Curse? Just depends on the day.
Fun fact: Did you know that Lima, Ohio is considered the Pork Rind Capitol of the world?
Neither did I until I moved across the country, ordered a selection of snacks from PorkRinds.com, and then read the bag when it got here, and it said they were based in Lima. Which, at that point, my Beloved googled and found that interesting factoid.
Wacky!
So, I was going to talk about horror movies, recurring nightmares, and aging out of them gracefully, but I feel like I've babbled on too long as it is, so that's a post for another day, as I have LOTS of thoughts and memories to share on the topic.
Today will be spent working on my office some more, and maybe rearranging the kitchen cabinet setup (the items INSIDE, not the cabinets themselves).
Hope you have an excellent day! I plan on it.
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